My vacation.... a good example of my motto

I've been enjoying the crap out of 3 weeks at home on vacation, which is now half over. I had said here in my profile how one of my strongest beliefs is about having to take both the good and the bad in life, it's just a part of living, you know? Well to elaborate on that 'motto'....... in the last week and a half, I've got from bad news (a death in my husband Albert's family, one of his sisters) to some really great news about my job (long story but let's just say through some changes at work, I'm relieved that it looks like my position will still be there!), then back today to some really shitty, stressful, heartbreaking news in another area of my life. ( kinda personal as it is about someone else and it's their business) In the space of less than 24 hours I've gone from hopping around squealing with glee to crying my eyes out for someone I love dearly who has major stress and problems, and I want to take it all away for them and can't. How frustrating and helpless I feel!

Okay, so us human beings who totally believe in a 'higher power' have, I believe a better chance dealing with the hard stuff, and I'm certainly grateful for my faith and all the help I get with it in my life. (God knows me well by now!!) Anyway, I just wanted to say that somehow, like everyone else, I'll deal with the crappy stuff somehow by facing it, feeling it, and trying to either fix it or move forward. And I'll also keep enjoying the ups and the joys, knowing I can't have it all one way. I have to tell you though, sometimes I just wish that all this "growth" would just plateau for awhile....... sigh. But then, that would be cheating, wouldn't it.

One thing I can say for sure, and with complete certainty, is that I know from experience that I'll always be looked after, no matter what is going on in my life. Sure, it doesn't mean the problems/hurt will be taken away, but it does mean that I'll be okay in the end, as long as I do the best I can with it all. I believe the best help is always at the end of our own two arms. (which are also great for hugging other people ~ another blog!) 9 years ago, a life-changing experience (mild way to say it, my beloved late husband, Gary, suddenly passed away, in my arms) steered me, out of absolute necessity, on a more spiritual path, which to this day I am grateful for the journey of, and will be on that path for the rest of my life. I have learned so many things on this journey, and mostly it's been about life's ups and downs, and how to cope. In short, I don't believe that when something bad happens, it's "life dealing us a crappy hand", but rather, when something bad happens, it's all about how you deal with it.

I know I've been rambling here a bit...... but as I said to a really great online friend of mine the other day, sometimes expressing your feelings and writing it all down is very healing....... I think when I started this post, I did not realize that I needed a little healing right now. So thanks for letting me vent. Please say a prayer for my loved one, God will know who you mean........ thank you.