WTF?


I'm going crazy.

Well at least, my body is.

For my male readers and friends, I hope you don't get all "aw geez....." on me here, it is afterall a fact of life so I hope you'll just look at it in that light. AND give me sympathy, LOL. (just kiddin'!) Besides, all of you have a female in your life you care about that faces this stuff... a mother, sister, wife, friend....whatever.

Okay I've been dealing with the hellish fun of the onset of menopause now for 10 years...almost 11. The last 4 years in full fledged-right-of-passage PAUSE. More like, "Stop". Urch!!

So by now I'm used to the shitty physical crap. But recently a new one has crept up on me, menopause related, or age related or whatever....it's a buggerbitch.

My body, that temple that has done nothing but betray me for the past several years, has made a decision without sending ME the memo. It has decided it wants to sleep during the day, and be awake all night. Until, oh....anywhere from 3 a.m. to 6 a.m., at which time it says, "Okay I'm ready to sleep now, okee dokee?" Terrific, especially when I have to get up at 6 a.m. to get ready for a day at work. Huh.

Needless to say, I'm so exhausted that my head sometimes feels like it's a balloon floating over my neck. Like I've said repeatedly, I really love being my age (almost 54 now) emotionally and spiritually. I just hate it physically ~~ it rather sucks the big one, you know?

My emotional and spiritual states are both climbing upward into realms of zen completely unknown to me in my younger (although slender and petite) years. But my physical state is just, well......going down the crapper of late.





I'm okay, I'm not bitchy or depressed or anything.... just dazed and confoozed most days. Ah well, it'll be better tomorrow maybe?

PEACE to you, and blessings ~~

Love Jude